Good morning anita.

Yesterday was great – I think my sister had a good time. The only reason some parts were stressful was because their own relationship issues – which doesn’t have anything to do with me. It of course bothers me because I care about them. But I know they are working on it.

Remember how I told you B and M were really there for me on Oct 3rd and it made me so happy? Let me tell you about something that is bothering me…I am embarassed to type what I am typing by the way because it is trivial and I will sound like a child. But that is why I am typing it – so I can change my thought process and learn the reality behind my thoughts.

So I have a group of close girlfriends here. B, J, and P. The girl M is from work. So BJP and me hang out all the time, its great.

P knows what happened – and she checked in on me Thursday. But hasn’t texted me since. And B obviously was there thursday. B and P hung out yesterday (I was of course invited but I was busy with my sister) – and I feel a little weird that they didn’t text me at all. I mean I feel that if I knew this happened to my friend – I would have sent a text or something. Especially if they are together, they could send a pic and say they hope I’m doing better. B hardly responded to my messages yesterday. Anita, I don’t even know what I’m typing. It all sounds crazy to me as I type it. What is this! Help me out here! I know you will!