Anita,

I know we are emailing – so this we can address after all of that is dealt with. I want to apologize if I have seemed a bit all over the place today – or have ignored some parts of your posts. I am having a bit of a hard time, which I’m sure you can probably tell.

I feel very sad that my sister is moving. I cried when I got home, and I think this is also part of the reason I cried on Saturday. We are finally close again and have started hanging out more. Our relationship is becoming healthier. Both of us just recently moved close to each other. It has not even been a full year yet. Our dogs literally love each other. They are inseparable. I finally feel like I have the love of family. And now..I found out they will be leaving in the next 2-3 months. How this breaks my heart.

I almost feel like….it can’t just be good for me. Something can’t just work out. And I do not mean this in the “woe is me” victim way. I finally go NC – and now my sister will leave. I do not have any family here. I have no one essentially. It is scary and sad – why must I live like this? Should I move too? (I will not, but I don’t understand why family should be apart..esp because of the trauma we have experienced). I just want something to work out for me – if that makes sense. Something good, something happy. I am sick of spending so much of life alone. It has been so nice getting closer to my brother in law. And I wish they would stay longer..I feel like we are getting closer, and then WOOP they leave. I do not really understand the point of love being so far away.