Dear anita,

-most likely it will happen again and maybe it already did, after your last post. Serious concerns such as this do not just disappear. Likely you will be concerned again many times. But don’t be alarmed when that happens. Strong feelings get recorded in our brain and even when we don’t feel them in a particular hour or day, we will feel them again. It is not because we have weak characters, it is because of our  animal nature

=yes its true it happened again as just now while im working out i saw that most of the boys are way taller than me and it drops my mood again. I just wish that i can as soon as possible get a partner so that i wont worry about height anymore because most concerns of my height is due to girls turn off when they look at me due to my height.

-“one of her friends describing her .. she’s pretty, kind and she’s a girl who’s getting chased by a lot of boys”- what does it mean to you, that she may be “getting chased by a lot of  boys”?

= Here what i mean is that her friend describe her as a girl who is pretty, kind and that most boys are always attracted to her in her looks and her innocent personality (like me who’s attracted). I sometimes feel afraid that someone will get close to her because they are attracted to her looks and personality even though right now im lazy to talk to her and think about her. But there is still this uneasy feeling that someone might wanna get close to her.

Another issue is that sometimes i get jealous of her that she’s born pretty and have that innocent personality that she can attract boys unconsciously and she can even reject them, meanwhile i have it hard in finding a single girl who is attracted to me. Idk if its normal that i feel jealous to an opposite gender.

Regards,

Felix