Dear Anita thank you for always replying me, you’ve help me a lot in improving myself for the better. I’m truly truly thankful to you.

Well besides my height problems that im concern of, it looks like i have found my most crucial problems which is my communication skills as im an introvert. I’m lazy to start a conversation with anyone since i’m a kid and right now every time i meet new people i’ll feel pressured and feel confused in what to reply. Sometimes i reply weirdly because i feel so pressured in talking to new people which cause that person to lose interest in me. As i also have a fierce face it makes it more difficult for people to start a conversation with me. This issue also applies in talking to girls, whenever i see a girl which i find attractive and i dont know her, i’ll feel shy to talk and even shy to look her in the eye so i pretend to not care and start playing with my phone to avoid feeling shy. I feel that i need to get to know the girls first so that i can talk, even though my talking skills are also bad. Idk what i should do to impress girls, as i already have a disadvantage in height and now its communication skills. Most people who first know me they see me as a cold person which actually im not. Im just shy to look at them in the eye and its frustrating for me. Even to start a conversation with girls through text im also shy, im afraid i might sound weird and i ended not texting any girls. Idk what solutions to overcome this problem has been on me for like a decade long.

As for the girl i use to talk about, even though im shy i get to know her because of an accidental chat. In which her friends dare her to chat me that time. And that she texted me first even though its not intentional, in which im confident that time because she’s the one texting me first and i have nothing to lose…. and therefore i ended up liking her for a long time till now.