Thank you and happy thanksgiving to you as well!

It is so frustrating to me how ignorant I become when I’m operating out of loneliness. I ignore things I wouldn’t if I had faith and confidence in myself. When I feel confident and lovable my attitude towards setting boundaries is much different than when I’m insecure and lonely. Im really looking for ways to keep my confidence in myself steady, and my faith in the universe that what I need I will receive with patience. I get frustrated with myself that I still feel unlovable even though there have been people and women who showed lots of interest in the past that I brush off and don’t take into account. I’m just so confused and angry with myself that I’m stuck in this pessimistic view of myself when no one else sees me this way. I get compliments from friends, family, clients, coworkers, and even complete strangers damn near on a daily basis, and I still can’t seem to shake my tendency to disqualify their positive remarks about me. All signals point to me being attractive, intelligent, sociable, lovable, fun, and compassionate yet I am so attached to my childlike ways of thinking