Hey Nekoshema,

Maybe I’m selfish but I really want her to be my girlfriend. I want it so bad. Maybe this time things will work out. I really crave for it and I know that it’s a bad habit to think that way.

I’m pretty sure that she doesn’t like me more than a friend. And that is the reason why I’m so scared of telling her how I feel. I don’t want to get rejected. To feel miserable again. By the way, it always bothers me that she almost never answers my texts right away. She can take 10 minutes to an hour.

Oh and A left me on ‘read’ when I asked her when she’s going on holiday.

I’m seeing D on Thursday’s afternoon (just had an anxiety attack an hour when I was thinking how bad it could go)