Dear Nichole:

I am glad that you are more clear regarding your mother, that you know that you bear no (zero) responsibility for neither her life nor her death.

Regarding your father and two brothers, you wrote: “years of abuse and manipulative from my brothers.. he has manipulated me through life as well and that is a truth I don’t want to face because it makes me feel like what is the point? Is there a different life of no abuse and real love out there?”-

– the point to facing this truth, that you were abused and manipulated for years by two brothers, is to free yourself from suffering, and sooner than later, have that “different life of no abuse and real love” that you want to experience.

May 2020 be the 2nd beginning, a 2nd chapter in your life, one where you turn away from all the people who have abused and manipulated you, all of them, and turn toward honest, kind and respectful people.

anita