Dear Gaia:

I am fine, thank you, a bit tired though.

Clearly, you shouldn’t participate in a romantic or sexual activity with a person who repulses you. It is not and cannot make sense to do  otherwise, unless a person is forced through violence or one is dying from starvation and the only way to survive is to have sex with a particular person. Maybe. But otherwise, what is the sense behind enduring romantic or sexual activity with a person who repulses you, none that I can think of.

You wrote about the guy: “He tried to get reasons out of me, out of my ‘strange’ behavior but to be honest I can’t understand it myself”-

– is the strange behavior you are referring to (I am not sure about the following, but basing it on something you shared earlier) that you first encouraged the guy by kissing him passionately, and acting romantic/ sexual, but not because you felt it, but because you were pretending, and then you abruptly stopped because you couldn’t take pretending anymore?

anita