Dear Gaia:

When I used to interact with others I felt very uncomfortable, as if they know that I am inferior to them, as if they will be insulting me at any time, say demeaning things to me, humiliate me, on purpose, make me feel bad, and I felt a mixture of shame and anger, shame at being less-than them, less than anyone, and anger that it is so, that I am less-than (so I believed!) and that they know it, and making me feel this way (so I believed)!

anita