Dear anita,

thank you for your encouraging words.

I am working towards being able accepting myself, but of course I still have negative thoughts about myself. I wish I could reach the level of self acceptance like in the song. But there is still a lot of work to do. Some days are better than others. Compared to last year, I feel definitely better.

During the last weeks, everything was overall o.K. I am still cooking, which is one of my favorite hobbies. At work I am doing o.K. I think I can do my tasks allright and I get along with my colleagues well. One even said that she will be working longer hours on the days when I am also there. And she said that she is glad, so we can work together more. It made me feel happy. I feel accepted there now and I am glad.

Also, I reached out to some friends and acquaintances and went to the museum to draw with one of them and this weekend I will meet with another. I am still feeling lonely often, but it is o.K.

The most insecure I am about uni. Sometimes I am not sure if I picked a career path that is simply too hard for me. I struggle still with procrastination and productivity. I can not really take myself seriously and of course others also don’t then. In the next time, I want to focus on improving there. Also in therapy, we want to focus on this topic.

I am glad that this one class I struggled with is over now. At least I stayed until the end, but I am not so happy with my accomplishments. I feel that the things I produced are good and go in the right direction, but I also feel like it is not enough and I have a lot to learn. Also, I felt very insecure there and a little weird and crazy.

But the important thing is to keep working on my project, as I feel that it has potential. Even if nobody else will care, it will be a way to express myself.

Well,all I can say is that I am trying.