Dear Anita

Today I finally realized my crush isn’t really into me. Well, I had already plenty of proofs but somewhat my mind always managed to hope or consider otherwise even if I tried to talk myself out of it. I never talk to my friends about this crush cause I barely know him and it makes me cringe, especially given how much I suffer about it. It’s already difficult for me to talk about this here but I realized I needed to express it somewhere because even though I tried to show empathy to myself and all it still hurts inside and i find it very difficult not to check his profile or checks his views on mine or fantasize about him. I tried so many times and I failed, I try to make peace with this but I can’t easily shake the hurt away