Did you feel cringy when you gave your crush a kiss on the cheek?

Nope even if the situation itself was a bit uncomfortable

 Did you feel cringy when hugging and kissing other guys in the past?

In those cases, it wasn’t so much the cringiness of the physical act but what was around it, the interaction, as I said. This summer I kissed a guy I had a very light crush on as a teen but then I definitely tried to block this memory because nothing came out of it, our interactions didn’t deepen, the chemistry we may have felt as teen was pretty much disappeared, I just felt uncomfortable on how much unfitting we were for each other. I guess the unfitting part is what makes me cringe everytime. I remember seeing him flirt and play around with a friend of mine this summer, and thinking that that could be us if I was a little bit different, a bit like her, that doesn’t make interacting with someone a uncomfortable thing.

Do you feel cringy when you fantasize about physical contact with guys?

Nope, it feels good. I make up stories and characters around it. It gets cringey when I imagine people totally out of my league and I have to unavoidably clash with what I am really, that is inexperienced and unaccomplished as a person on so many levels, maybe pretty but nothing more, intelligent but not always and things like these. Otherwise it doesn’t feel bad

Do you feel cringy when you fantasize about “interactions as a whole” with people?

Yes. It’s really distressing. In the sense that I can feel my whole muscles tense up and that’s what I mean for physically painful. My body isn’t relaxed and loose but it’s like I shrink. I doesn’t always look bothered, it’s not that I can’t make the first step towards others or that I hide away when I see someone, it’s not that I look like a coward, you could say there’s nothing wrong but I truly only relax when I’m alone

– is fantasy a cringe-free zone?

Yes if I want it to be. In fantasy I can push away everytime that makes me uncomfortable of real life and real events and pretend they don’t exist

Who are the people who you are “really used to them”?

When I was a teen, it was a friend I was always with and always talked with. We’re no longer that close though. It could also be my most close relatives and other kinds of close friends. Or even someone who is naturally a friendly and talkative person that just wants to get along with everyone.