Dear Gaia:

In your most recent post you wrote that you believe that your childhood was not abnormal, that you were born an unhappy child (“My childhood experience wasn’t abnormal.. I was already an unhappy child”), that you were unhappy not because of anything that happened in your childhood, but because you weren’t a fantasy character (“I was unhappy because I wished I could be  one of those fantasy main characters”). In other words, your childhood has nothing to do with your current distress, is what you believe.

You also wrote that you can’t recall anything at all about your childhood that will explain your current anger (“I can’t recall a significant thing that should legitimate my anger now”).

And you wrote that you express yourself a lot better in writing than you do talking, and suggested that my input in your thread made it possible for you to express yourself here in writing.

Now my input: I repeatedly expressed to you in your threads my belief that your childhood has a whole lot to do with your years long anger and distress. But you don’t share my belief. I will respect this difference in core beliefs and therefore I will stop repeating to you my core belief: I will no longer try to encourage you to examine your childhood and acquire insight into how I believe it formed you.

Because the only benefit to you in this thread is to express yourself in writing (or typing, more accurately), I do encourage you to keep doing so.

Earlier today, you wrote: “I feel frustration increasing in me and have no  one else to say these things beside on this thread”-  please do say anything you need to say, express your thoughts and feelings, vent, right here on your thread, and every time you do, when I am on the computer, I will reply to you by mirroring you, which means I will type back to you some of what you shared, so you can see that I heard you.

anita