Dear Gaia:

“any input from you about how my childhood affects me now is absolutely always welcomed”- all my input is in these 18 pages of your thread, it’s all there, a whole lot about how your childhood affects you. You are welcome to read our previous communications on this thread, it’s all there.

And according to my input to you in these pages, input that I repeated again and again, I can see how all of that is “enough for you to be like this now”.

I am disappointed that none of my input to you so far regarding the connection between your childhood and your years long and ongoing distress has reached you, it is frustrating to me. But like I promised you, I will not punish you for being honest with me and letting me know that indeed none of my input has touched you. I will not end my communication with you because of that, and instead I am sharing with you honestly how I feel, so it is the two of us expressing how we feel honestly and respectfully.

So I figure it is futile for me to repeat again and again.. and yet again, the same analyses, the same thoughts, the same understanding when all you have to do if you were interested in it, is read it.

Also, I understand how difficult it is to see what we don’t want to see, what we resist seeing.

Like I wrote, do post anytime, I do want to read from you and I will reply to you every time you post, as long as you are respectful to me as I am to you.

anita