Yes, you’re real in my life and yes, no one else put so much time and dedication to help me, not since a high school friend of mine tried to assure me that a certain crush liked me back and that I was the one in fault not noticing it (he had a gf by the way) but this is a old weird story

One thing I was wondering last night and this morning, as my brain default engaged in angry scenarios, was that what hurts me the most is feeling rejected or outcasted. It something that happened all my life since elemantary school til this very day, not being fully rejected nope but neither loved or valued. I’m part of it, I’m not rejected or hated but I’m neither loved either, it’s like I’m merely being tolerated.