Dear Anita,

Thank you so much for replying me so clearly and really a lot of explanation that make me feels better. I don’t realize that what happen in the past that really matters and make me like this.

Actually maybe it’s also the habit from i was a teenager, when i like someone else, i always convincing myself that he is not care or thought about me. Thats because i don’t want to hope too high. I already realize that i also do this with my husband.. what’s the matter for me that i worried still strugle for tommorow is how to forget that he care to another woman more than to me..? I worried that he compare me to her.. i also don’t know how he treat her at the office.. what should i do to convince my heart and brain to trust him..?

For the temporary and for make me aware of my obsession, I’ll  read ur answer about his chat to her more than once.. and convince myself little by little..

Thank you so much for warning me not too much possesive to him, not making him feel bad. Do you have any suggestion how to decrease my paranoid/possesive thought..? And also.. actually i live like live in his life.. My attention just for him, honestly not attention to really care about him, but attention to get his attention (ofcourse sometimes i care about him instead but most of time, i focus on his attention). i don’t  know why and i really hard to stop that.

Indeed, i can just literally daydreaming (i mean not doing anything, just seatdown then thinking about him or waiting him to come to me). It’s really annoyed me actually..a i tried to do another thing, it’s not working. Like my mood is depend on him(sometimes i mean. But most of time like that).

I want to be a better person, woman, wife actually.. but sometimes, i don’t have high self esteem. i also feel not as good as her (his friend i mean).. i know no one is perfect and everyone have their own abilities. But since i to possessive/obsessive to him, my world like gone. What i usually do when i was still single, it’s gone.. sometimes i tried to go back to my old hobbies, i felt bored and i can leave them all offhand when he come to me. Even it’s when i in workplace, i also could just thought about him especially when he didn’t chat me.. But he totally different, he can play game for several hours. He can work without worrying or ask my attention..

It’s drive me crazy everyday.. i want to change..

Thank you Anita.. because of ur explanation, i really feel better and not really worry like the first time i know it and tell u..