anita,

To your question,

 And now what, now that I know it, and hopefully you know it, what is there for you to do?

I am not sure, even reading over the excerpts you  used from previous things I said, I doubt them, if they are true or not,  and wonder why I said them. Sometimes it seems I am very sure something was wrong, thinking something had to have been wrong… and then other times I just get confused and can’t think of anything concrete. The only thing I can think is that it’s unfortunate that I was the way I was growing up, and that it’s unfortunate that I am the way I am now still today. (Like even right now, I’m being rather difficult)

It is hard to know what to do next, I think I am still learning the possibilities of what can happen.