This may explain why it is so hard to find acceptance in my family and why it’s hard to explain to them who I am as a person. Even though I was born in America and have access to reach out for resources, my family came here from Fuzhou which is a Chinese city in the province of Fujian which is southeast Asia. It has been harder for them because they know I’ve been attending pride groups and therapy and considering to transition and they feel they are losing the person they knew as a child. They worry about my education and think that it is a result of these pride groups that have affected me to become transgender, but that’s not the case. They think I am selfish that I don’t appreciate the life they gave me and want to live what they think is someone else’s life. Even though I’m the same person, just a different body and I want to become the person I was meant to be as a male. They think I’m ruining my life by being depressed and making the wrong choices in life even though I’ve tried explaining to them that being transgender is who I am. I even told them in terms that they understand that I know that this is me becoming my true self and I want to be happy. I don’t want to live my life living in the wrong body but it’s still hard to get them to accept it. They have been telling me that they think the pride groups are interfering with my education and turning me into bad, irresponsible person. I feel like I am losing my family, but I never felt like I had them in the first place. I feel frustrated that they won’t support me in my transitioning, but I’m happy to have the resources to help me. If I had more financial backing and could continue my college education if I transitioned I would do it sooner. I feel like my family and I no longer trust each other and the emotional bond between us has been broken and in some ways I’m okay with it because I’ll try to find a way to be myself, but in other ways I feel numb like I’ve lost a part of me because I no longer have the supportive ground I knew and relied on for so long.