Dear Anita

Here what I think has been traumatic in my life: feeling burdened at very young age by my mother emotions, a detached father, having often episodes of being outcasted/made fun of/bullied by school and peers since a very young age, frequent episodes of humiliation and shame (due to me feeling lost and disoriented in real life environments and interactions), feeling chronically unaccomplished and “less than”, spending my whole teen years trying to be someone else instead of just enjoying my years, OCD and other very burdening mental and existential issues, self loathing and extreme mood swings, the persistent feeling of life not being bad (“there are people who have it worse”) but neither of it being enjoyable, gratifying and stimulating, feeling like I have to hide or suppress many parts of myself, also suffering about my crushes has been traumatic for me (it’s laughable to consider it traumatic I know but I’ve suffered obsessively really a lot for them)