Dear Gaia:

Regarding talking about yourself so  in depth terrifying you, remember that it is always your choice to talk or not to talk. You can tell me: I don’t want to talk about X or Y. It is way better that you say that to me instead of talking about X or Y in a half hearted way, that is, saying and not saying something at the same time.

I am glad that you distinguish between trauma and the response to trauma. Mood swings, a response to trauma causes us further trauma, true. Same with the other responses, they cause further trauma. It is like a ball of mud (the original trauma) rolling down a hill, gathering more and more mud, getting bigger and bigger.

I don’t think that you whine “without a solid reason”. I see your reason for your distress (your trauma) as way more solid than you do. If you saw it as solid as I do, you would be interested in dissolving it, so that it is less and less solid. If you dissolve your solid trauma, you will find your soul (undoing that soul loss)- wouldn’t that be a wonderful, beautiful thing!!!

anita