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Dear Janus, Earth Angel and Poet:
A summary of your recent post: you dropped out of Organic Chemistry, so now you are still a student in Stockton, but a student who is no longer enrolled in classes. As such you don’t have access to the counseling center, but you do have access to the meditation group, anxiety group and the Transcendence group, and you “can still spend time in the LGBTQ safe space on campus”.
While struggling with the Spring semester, you reached out to the CARE program at Stockton which helps students struggling with mental health and you reached out to Student Success Services which provided you a mentor for your studies. You dropped Genetics and most recently, you withdrew from Organic Chemistry. Your focus now is to work on your mental health and prepare for the Fall 2020 semester.
You asked for my advice: reads like you are aware of all the resources on campus, you made contact with all possible people who can help you on campus and you are on your way to getting better. I hope your appointment with your gender therapist this coming Thursday is helpful to you.
Like I suggested in my last post to you, your anxiety came first, then it attached itself to your gender. So what needs to be worked on is your anxiety, and the source of your anxiety is your early (and current) relationships with your emotionally distant, unsupportive and frequently yelling parents, with whom you still live.
Because your parents are still yelling at you, it would be best if you found a way to live away from them. I understand that you don’t have the resources, but keep in mind that what is best for you is to no longer be exposed to your parents yelling at you. So if there is a way, don’t overlook it.
anita