I’m very happy I found this. I was searching this up and read about what you said and apparently I’m going through the same exact thing. I feel like a horrible person about it because I have the fear of labeling myself as gay/ lesbian knowing that I’m not. I was never like this before until I reached pre-adulthood and it started happening. I know for a fact that this isn’t normal and has nothing to do with my sexuality. I don’t know if it’s an OCD issue but I hope I can get help.