i know this is 2020,

but I too just had to put my old doggie to sleep. I loved him more than life itself. He was magical and amazing.Thinking back to the last few months, i ignored all the signs that he needed an appetite increasing medication or something. He needed a vet. Had i done this I know he’d be on the bed with me as I type this. Its my fault. I know its my fault. When he was showing early signs of feeling sick, I didn’t act. I let him sleep in his comfy bed and deteriorate. I let him do that and i cannot forgive myself. He deserved so much more and I let him down.