You are a light that will always shine in any friendship, there are so many fascinating connections awaiting you in this world, your friendship is clearly valuable, get extremely busy with a hobby, volunteering and take some time out, see how things unfold, you need more distributed love in your life so that you are secure, nourished and buffered from life’s ups and downs, join groups that can eventually be your tribe like a community, then the context of this will fall into place automatically.