He said it was wrong of him to get frustrated and he needed to control his reactions and anger. I had told him that I even asked what was wrong plenty of times and he never bothered to share. I myself also get caught in the moments of life and sometimes tend to take it out on others (which is what I’m working on) so I told him he must be willing to do the same.

Remember when I had told you he had childhood trauma and paranoia as well as anxiety? Here is a better explanation of all that. It all roots from his household and he deals with it everyday with his mom and is always paranoid and high sprung all the time because of her. (this is just an explanation that might help you understand maybe why he is like this).

But anyways he had said that it wasn’t fair to me and that he doesn’t know where he went wrong when I told him about how he was before vs. now. I told him that I didn’t mean to make him feel like he wasn’t enough but somewhere along the way, something changed and that’s why I hold on to the memories the most. I definitely agree that when someone is frustrated they shouldn’t just turn away but be towards the person and he said that was something he needed to work on.

I am meeting him tomorrow to give him his present and I made sure and asked if it was good beforehand. Since it’s his birthday I don’t want to talk about any of this and make his day not special, so tomorrow I will just give him his present and hang out for a little bit. I can update you tomorrow on our hang out and see how it goes.