Hi Baraan,

The first rule I give myself is to take it easy on myself when I am sick. You have a fever. Your are sick. Be all, “All self putdowns are put on hold until I am well.” Your inner critic will start yelling and screaming at this. Tough. You are sick. Physical wellness trumps dealing with pesky emotions.

I’ve noticed that everyone’s “Stuff” is coming up now because of the pandemic. Thus, the angry letter you received. Send the letter back to the person with “There is no reason to write to me that way, you can be respectful to me.” This person may spit and snarl and write you another angry letter. Just keep sending it back with the same response. Yes, even if you were horrible.

When you are better, you can surely travel to see your family.

As for the academia, blame your illness for your rude behavior, then LET IT GO. The school year is almost over (unless you are in a graduate/PHD scene). Write and little and read a little every day. “Put something in the bank” every day.

Feel Better,

Inky