Dear gamer:

“from being lovers to complete strangers as if right now”- just because you don’t talk to him or see him, doesn’t mean you are complete strangers. You were complete strangers before you met him. Imagine the person who is so important to you now- he wasn’t important to you at all before you met him. You lived a life before you met him and, you can live your life now with no contact with him.

I suggest you fill your day with something new, a new routine that includes daily exercise: a fast walk twice a day maybe, a guided meditation first thing in the morning (I recommend The Mountain Meditation) and before bed, a daily study.. fill your day with structure, and see how that helps you.

Like I wrote to you before: you have to stop being so desperate for him. He is not necessary for you to live. He is not your oxygen, you can breathe without him!

anita