Anita I just struggle so much to know what steps to take. I also feel guilt because I wish I could make things work with the good guy and try to push through the anxiety when we are together, but I just dont feel strong enough to do that. Do you think thats avoidance? I dont want to avoid the relationship it just seems like it has already been 10 months of me having break downs and I dont think I can handle them anymore.

I was thinking taking time from the relationship and continuing therapy is my initial plan. Maybe the next step will come to me then.