Dear Lisa:

I see. You wrote earlier about your visits at S’s house: “it’s uncomfortable and awkward but normal. He even calls me beautiful all the time. But overall he acts normal. Like he doesn’t remember at all. Which is another reason why I felt like it was all in my head”- I don’t like it that you are visiting S, feeling awkward and uncomfortable,  and doubting your experience because he acts normal.

I understand your love for your brother, but I wish there was (and there may be!) a way for you to visit with your brother without ever being in the presence of S again.

anita