Dear Anita,

Yes, it could be possible that he was not sincere. I read a few things about toxic relationships and codependency, and I found out some things during this period. The programs we develop as children seem so strong that, even if now I can see the connection between them and some of my actions, I still fell unable to react in a different manner. During the relationship too, even if my body would tell me it was not fine and I had to get out, I felt like I had no choice and have to give all my best in order to make it work.

I really hope to manage to pass this step and maybe have a good relationship some day.

Thank you for kindly replying to me and I hope your Sunday is wonderful.