Dear anita,

My confidence is growing these two days, and honestly now I’ve developed a negative feeling towards him, not sure how to describe it, a kind of hostility maybe even though there’s no interaction at all. Hope it won’t last for too long or I can release it well.

The sentence relates to what I mentioned before: I either care for people or I don’t. So if he ever reaches out again, to protect myself, I may simply ignore him, which is cold and probably selfish in my opinion, and that’s something I dislike to be treated and have tried to not to do that to him.

Talking about children, I seem to have abandonment issues, but I can’t recall if it stems from my childhood.