Dear veronka:

“Am I lesbian in denial? Do I have HOCD?”- that’s the question the HOCD (Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) crowd asks over and over.. and over and over.. and over and over… and again, and is never satisfied with answers.

A question is satisfied with an answer; an obsession is never satisfied with an answer, not with a million answers.

The major part of HOCD is not the H, but the O: Obsession.

Here is what I suggest to you:

1) Do not participate in HOCD forums. Reading other people’s posts in those forums, asking questions and reading answers  is increasing your OCD. The participation in those forums is the C part of your OCD: it is a Compulsion. Performing compulsions energize, fuel and maintain OCD.

2) Do not watch lesbian porn- watching porn is another Compulsion that is energizing, fueling and maintaining your OCD.

3) See a medical doctor and ask to be evaluated regarding your anxiety and what seems like OCD. There are medications and psychotherapy treatments for OCD.

anita