Lucie….

I’m not sure if I always had anxiety to be honest. Because before my breakup/breakdown with the ex, it was never really something I thought about or had a vocabulary around. Perhaps when I was younger and got ‘scared’ about things, that was anxiety but I didn’t label it as that at the time.

Yes I went on anti-anxiety tablets for a period of time, they weren’t strong dosage and didn’t numb me or even make me feel like sunshine and roses, but what they did do for me was give me that one per cent I needed to come out of the fog of doom I was in, they allowed me to see the wood for the trees. When I got that little hook back in to reality, I was able to use other resources and supports then to get myself back on track and thankfully have been off any medication for quite a while now.

I wouldn’t have a huge knowledge of PTSD, even though sometimes I have lingering trauma relating to things that happened me many years ago, but @kkasxo has given you some guidance on this I think. There are a couple of US based accounts that do free workshops such as catapult coaching and jrni coaching. Also my GP recommended a service that ran 6-week counselling on a pay what you can afford basis, as little as 5$ pounds if that’s all I could pay etc. I find Brene Browne interesting also and Dr. Joe Dispenza, they have so many youtube videos and talks.

I had a panic attack in my therapists office earlier this week, so I’m by no means ‘on top’ of this crap, but when it happened on Monday, I knew exactly what it was, it did not feel great obviously, but I was aware it would pass and I’d be okay. So I’ve just learned that through practice over the years. I hope this helps in even the tiniest way x