Dear anita,

you are having too much fun with the turtle comparison, haha. But also, I do not feel completely comfortable with it. The bottom line is that we are very different. I never know what he thinks or wants. We are just no match.

But this short communication with him, I feel was successful. I stated very clearly what I wanted and I was at the same time kind. I was the person that I want to be. True to myself yet friendly. Unlike when I first met him, always trying to please him and feeling wrong all the time.

I feel I am now better able to look outward, look at what happened. I can see why it did not work, I can see that he is not responding to what I am telling him at all. Does he just not care? Who knows. What is important is, that I do not want that. Now I feel that even if I meet him, I will be able to stay true to myself. I have gained some confidence.