Dear Lily:

“I hope it is o.k., about the turtle”- yes, it is okay.

“About meeting him.. I would like to have a friendly ending, as it would make me feel better”- this urge to meet him one final time for a friendly ending- I see is a compulsion, an OCD type compulsion- wanting to do something symbolic so to quiet an urge/ an intense distress.

When you give in to a compulsion, you imagine that you will be forever relieved, but the relief is temporary, and soon enough, the urge returns as well as the compulsion.

anita