Thank You so much for the support Marie. I hope you get the clarity you want soon.

I don’t know your story and while I’m still recovering and there’s absolute golden advice on this site, as someone who chose to not be anymore with a partner that i still love but who hurt me a lot, I’d say this.
It is very difficult to part but the peace and stability that separating from an abusive partner gives you outweighs the pain eventually.
There’s a quote I read somewhere which might sound a little cliched but has helped me every time I thought of giving in : A high-value person places more value on their self-respect than they do on their want of being with any particular man/woman.