Sammy,

Yeah medication is never a long term option for me, but I find it a useful tool when needed and it doesn’t mask anything for me as I still feel everything sharply but it helps get a little more control or sense over my emotions so I can deal with them better.

With the journalling I guess I just open a page and usually a first thought will come to me. Oh I date it, like a diary…don’t know why, but that’s what I do! My first line might be something like ‘I feel lonely…..and then the words just pour from there. I start asking myself how do I feel and I write the answer that comes down on the page and I keep going until it’s all out or my hand gets tired writing. That’s another thing, I do it with a physical notebook and pen, not on my computer.

Rhaenys made some goof suggestions about youtube or podcasts….I find them great as they engage my mind for periods, especially if they are insightful. But it’s okay that you feel this way, it’s a pretty sucky situation at the moment – and you’re at a point in your life now it seems where the breakup has triggered other things that your soul wants to deal with. It’s all growth….painful though it may be…it’s a cracking open.

Stay strong, you know you can do it and the few weeks isolation will be over soon and you’ll get to pound the pavement again.

Rhaenys, I can enpathise on the work front. I was really nice inspired anymore by my last job but it was comfortable and familiar, hence I stayed there too long.

You have great suggestions though to fill up your life outside of work, so I hope that keeps you going.