Dear noname:

You are welcome. “I was thinking some more this morning, I was asking myself how can I consciously create an internal feeling of love.. Maybe some form of meditation can help with this”-

– I recommend J. Mark G. Williams mindfulness meditations series, available online (I listened to one free of charge some time ago). He is a leading authority on mindfulness, a professor of clinical psychology and Honorary Senior Research Fellow at the University of Oxford.

You may also benefit from his book, The Mindful Way through Depression: Freeing Yourself from Chronic Unhappiness.

A quote from the book regarding meditations: “the combination of Western cognitive science and Eastern practices was just what is needed to break the cycle of recurrent depression”.

Another quote from the book that I think you may be interested in: “depression forges a connection in the brain between sad mood and negative thoughts, so that even normal sadness can reawaken major negative thoughts“.

Back to quoting you: “I’m not so great at seeing and meeting my own needs in the moment”- mindfulness practices, such as listening and participating in mindfulness meditations- will lead you, if you persist,  to seeing and meeting your own needs in-the-moment.

anita