Dear Nichole:

“I am not sur if I would get the vaccine”- I will and I hope you do too. For a vaccine to protect society, a large proportion of the society needs to be vaccinated, otherwise it will not work. As far as the Covid vaccine, it will take 70% or so of society to be vaccinated in order to achieve herd immunity.

You shared that your job is currently part time and therefore you are on unemployment, that your writing may appear calmer, but you are not calm: this week you’ve been “in an uproar.. in waves of anxiety or shut down”. You are considering meds, having a prescription that you are reluctant to take, that you are “so alone, so isolated”, that you don’t belong anywhere, and that you need to connect to people.

You wrote: “My ptsd has been triggered by so many people since leaving my family. I have found that 90% of the people I have met are just as abusive as my family”.

You’ve been considering talking to your aunt because in comparison to your other family members, as well as to 90% of the people you met in Florida, she is not so bad: she stayed by your side during rough times and you felt comfortable sharing your feelings “and processing things with her”.

A question to you: when did you communicate last with your aunt and what was it about.. what did she say to you?

anita