Hi Anita,

That was really helpful. Thank you so much. I truly appreciate your analysis and insights. You stated that you also suffer from BPD but it no longer lingers you. How do you did you manage to get it out? I couldn’t understand why I felt this way for such a long time until my former therapist told me so. I want to be satisfied with life, but yet I don’t.

I have high expectations for myself (probably influenced by my parents, mother esp) I understand my inner-child yearns for more, yearns to feel “complete.” How do I heal this pain? I suffer from it. I believe that to be true.

I don’t want it to take over me for the rest of my life. What are your strategies? What are your coping mechanisms?

I have built good relationships with friends, peers, colleagues over time.

I know, I will soon finish another master’s program, and I will have a professional degree in nursing (helping others) and I don’t want this pain to manifest. I know that I am empathetic bc of my upbringing. I chose this profession to alleviate the suffering experienced by others and to make sure they are not abandoned. I am scared that it will manifest and also that I can’t have a secure romantic relationship. I don’t want to be cursed. I want to heal.

I appreciate you so much, Anita.