Dear Danny:

In your original post you shared that after that night, “something changed… the intimacy level between us skyrocketed. Something switched and solidified our connection.. We spoke about this feeling, and discovered it was mutual”-

– I was so impressed by the strong words you used (the italicized), that I assumed that the conversation between the two of you happened in bed, following the sexual experience, and that it was a deep, thorough conversation where discoveries were made (matching the verb discovered that you used).

In your most recent post you indicated that the conversation was not at all as I assumed it was, that it was an exchange over text, one that did not involve an in-depth, thorough discovery (being it was over text . This fits with the second part of your recent post, where you suggested that it is possible that she “got impatient waiting” (for you to bring up a discussion about intimacy, one that didn’t yet happen, really), moving the relationship along from the context of hookups to the context of a bf-gf relationship.

I want to bring up a few quotes from your previous threads that may shed some light on your current predicament- Feb 2014: “I’ve been angry so long that it has become a part of me”, Sept 2014: “I know I haven’t truly & fully let go of that anger & hate”, Jan 2015: “I also think all the hate I’ve been harbouring has been stopping the right woman coming onto my life… I want to be truly happy & find the woman of my dreams. I know it’s not  possible to do that whilst harbouring hate”, Jan 2017: “somewhere deep inside that craving for revenge.. will linger”, Oct 2018: “Deep down part of me still wants revenge”, Nov 2018: “I’m already a bachelor, and I intend to be forever”, May 2019: “I don’t have the dark cloud of burning rage of 2014 still hanging over me”-

– Maybe some part of that dark cloud is still there, hanging over you, keeping you from having a healthy, emotionally intimate, trusting relationship.. ?

anita