Dear Erica:

Welcome to the forums. You shared that your self doubts are loud, that you avoid opening your mail because you are afraid to find out that you’ve “done something wrong, or forgotten something again”, you are afraid that spending more time doing school work, will lead to you finding “more problem” that need to be fixed, so you postpone the work to the last day, and you shared that it will be tough for you to check replies to this thread, because you are afraid to “look stupid”, to be judged by people reading your original post.

“I still care far too much what others may be thinking about me when they look at me. Any thoughts, tips, advice, etc.?”-

– there is the usual advice regarding how to lessen anxiety, such as daily aerobic exercise, healthful nutrition, adequate sleep, listening to calming guided meditations, doing Mindfulness exercises (focusing on the here-and-now), etc.- you are probably familiar with those. But as far as giving you advice specific to you, it will take for me to get to know you better. I imagine that would be a scary idea for you, that the more you type into your post/s- the more material to be (mis)used by members to to judge you. Is my understanding correct?

anita