So today I became very brave. We had a lovely Valentine’s Day together and he made us a steak dinner and I bought him some chocolate. He bought me ice skates so we could go ice skating. I was satisfied, but at the same time growing as confused as ever, because a year ago we were broken up and he didn’t see a future. I also spent a second weekend in a row with his family and his sister and her kids and he bought presents for them and said they were from us. More acknowledgement of us as a couple.

So I decided on some questions I could ask. First I asked if he was still seeking other women on the dating apps. It seems that I caught him off guard. He said he still had the apps but he found them ridiculous and was only using them for people watching and he was not interested in seeing other women. Just a reminder this statement comes about a month or so after I told him I would be off them for good. I played dumb and said “but don’t you want to meet someone else” because that had always been what he’d been telling me. He said no I don’t like other people and I have you. And I pushed further and said but I thought you felt there was someone else out there for you and he just said “no I don’t want to meet anyone else anymore.” Then he asked again if I was.

So I left that and we went on with our day, but I was still curious if this was just some stuff he was telling me to appease me. So I waited and wrestled back in forth with it in my head, should i just leave it or should I ask him. I promised that if the answer was no I’d try to start dating again. So we lay down cuddling and he asked how my Valentine’s was, and I came up with the courage and blurted “would you even consider living together?” before I could chicken out. He seemed to respond rather quickly and said “maybe, but where would I put all of my stuff?” It seems that he’s been pondering on his own. I told him we could get rid of my stuff but I didn’t expect him to move here. Maybe he’s been considering here because of the cheap rent hah. I said I thought it was too far from work and he said it probably is. I wasn’t going to let him off scotch free, so I said well maybe when you move out again soon, we can have a trial where I stay with you for a bit and if it makes you uncomfortable I can leave, no questions. He said he would think about it. MAJORRR progress. I feel, from him telling me he’d never be with me and didn’t see a future. I’ll take it for now, even if he takes it back. It just feels like one giant leap for womankind, everywhere, who deal with men and their commitment issues and have some patience.