Dear TeaK,

Thanks for your understanding, and I hope the following would clarify 🙂

All of my male colleagues are married, and I don’t worry when chatting with them (though not often) like with that man.

I’m sure that there can be a friendship between a man and a woman, because I do have such a “pure” friendship going on, just wondered if I could be like that with that man, and you probably would agree that it’s not too possible as long as I still “hold on” to a degree.

And yes, it upsets (or upset) me to think if he has chosen other women over me, I think it left me feeling not good enough.

As for what I need from him, I read the question as “what did he give to make me stuck on this connection?”, and thought the answer were the good old times, but what I remember better now are those bitter moments.

Thank you for the examples, I’ll try to remind myself and continue to work on my own sense of security.