I will make efforts, to be okay. To be better. I seem to be okay on my own but I just wish I hadn’t met this guy. I don’t know why i meet people who don’t want to stay. I still want to love someone before I decide to marry them but I am so scared.

We did get back. Both of us could not leave the relationship and kept coming back to one another. He even approached my sister with the intention of convincing her in August and things got so bad that he had an anxiety attack when he met me next.

Both of us got damaged. I did some online reading which said the masturbation habit could have happened because got addicted to the happy feeling one feels during orgasm. He wasn’t an addict earlier, it became worse during lockdown… especially after November. He says he is scared of marrying anyone now. It’s not me, he doesn’t want to get married at all is what he says. But kept coming back to me because he said he felt like he could never like anyone else the way he liked me.

Thanks for listening to me Anita, I am trying to focus more on work so that I think less of this, obviously, it doesn’t work but trying hard it would.

I suggested him to talk to you multiple times ’cause you are able to find answers to the problem within the description of the problem but he chose offline therapy sessions over online therapy and he wasn’t satisfied with it. Said I felt nothing felt clear even after talking to the counselor. I still wish him to be healthy and happy. He is a good man.