Morning Sammy, hope your good! The positivity has faded a bit today, this could be the medication taking effect as you feel worse before you feel the benefits but I am soldiering through. Also it’s the weekend, the worst part of the week for me, unable to stop any manifesting thoughts of what she is up to not matter how hard I try, I just want them to disappear! Of course I know I’m still in early phases and grieving will take as long it takes and I won’t act on it, I really had the urge to look on fb earlier but resisted, it’s been a week and I don’t want to fall down, doesn’t help that I haven’t got much going on myself, I’m going to pop into my friends after work but will only be for a short while, I’m not drinking for a bit until the tablets have kicked in.

Thanks I’m glad your noticing the changes through the posts, I myself at the moment am happy I’m making these steps and doing what I can but at this point I’m still feeling not much progress in how I feel, I know it’s all about time, I’m really keen to speak to the therapist as when I had the assessment and explained the root cause of why I was feeling like I am it helped immensely, I gave a brief breakdown from start to finish of the timeline of how it has played out and even when I was explaining this, it is making me realise how bad it is and the way I’ve been treated and how it is going to be better for me when I finally move past it. The goals are there and it’s a daily focus to hit as many as I can by the end of the year, Rome wasn’t built in a day!

Honestly you and Danny have been fantastic taking the time to post, it’s been a real comfort, I feel like this thread is an important support bubble for me at the moment so thank you so much