Dear anita,

good to hear that you are fine!

Thank you for your offer. I am not sure though. At the moment I am feeling calm and stable and I feel that I should concentrate more on the present. I have extensively thought about my problems and the past here with you, in therapy and my own mind. You have helped me. I feel that I have understood much more and gained more clarity. Sometimes old ways of thinking come up and I guess I will never become 100% confident. But I am making progress. My thoughts that came up when you complimented me were my old thinking patterns. Feeling like a fraud and making myself small.

I should learn how to take a compliment! I know you meant it whole heartedly. Hopefully, you know that you have truly helped me and that I appreciate all of your hard work.

Today I went for a walk, picked wood garlic, cleaned for a bit and worked on my illustration. Tomorrow again I want to work on my illustration.