Hey all. Sorry for delay. I’ve been busy. I’ve been beyond busy. I barely have time to shower. Studying, interviewing, and bunch of other stuff.

1. Yes, I did watch that movie. It’s OK, but a little too simple. I live in the real world and this real world is killing me

2. I want to accept my self, totally accept myself as I am and fully embrace my current situation. But then I am interviewing with these awful corporatists who are very smart, but have no souls and decency. After each interview I am so tired that I feel like I just ran a marathon. I literally disconnected from a video interview today because the moron made me run live simulations in how to address a problem. I don’t do technical interviews. They are absolutely silly. So I am beyond exhausted. I wish there was something else I could where I could make decent money. I love technology, but corporate capitalism is a cancer.

3. I am all about Wu-Wei, Zen, and whatever else is there that helps me go with the flow. But as I mentioned above, corporatists and landlords and this western culture doesn’t care about any of my problems. I don’t know where to find the balance. Where do I find the strength while holding on to sanity. I don’t know. Words from the wise are amazing and help me find love and inspiration, but then I go back to the real world that is unforgiving, cold, brutal, and much worse. It’s torturing me. I don’t mind studying for next 18 months to get to where I want to be, but I am not sure I can survive the soulless existence of the corporate world. And believe me, if there was an alternative, I’d do it. I literally don’t know what else to do other than go drive a truck.