Dear anita,

thank you for listening and responding! It helps to have a place where I can let my thoughts out. Your words have also helped me.

Today I am feeling better. I guess the day at work had stressed me a bit. But the good thing is, that I am slowly learning to set boundaries, like with the co-worker.

I also talked for a while with my roommate. We get along well and she also said that she feels happy and content here. So I have calmed down. Sometimes my thoughts get a little out of control.  The fear of being outcasted and judged is very big and comes up from time to time. But I do not want to create conflict or a situation like in the dormitory. Best to calm myself down and be a little bit more trusting of people. If there was a problem, I am trusting that they would come to me to talk about it.

You are also right that they likely don’t talk about me. I am sure they have a lot of other things to discuss!

About the roommates: there were always two of them, but one of them spent a lot of time at her partner’s place and also went travelling for a few months. So she was not very present and I did not get to know her well. Later she moved out to live with her partner. A new roommate moved in and at the beginning of this year the other “old” roommate found a new flat for herself, closer to her workplace and another new roommate moved in.

Today I worked on project C and cleaned for a bit. Now I feel pretty tired, so I will go to sleep soon. Tomorrow I want to work on project C and also go outside for a walk or something like that.

Have a good day!