It is true somewhat, it’s always the pain seeking out to me in the form of failure, disappointment, heartbreak and just a point where life isn’t working out at all.

And it comes from every angle, some not wanting to make me feel this way but still it hurts me, other’s wanting to directly hurt me on their own. I am busy and working, I’m still grateful for the things I own, for the life I lead however, I also want to progress, I also want to achieve things, be emotionally successful and reach a point where my efforts will matter in dealing with my problems. My family members not having success in their careers makes me feel all the more pain because I see them putting in the effort. Then again I’m trying myself to advance in my career but, nothing’s working out within a time like this where opportunities are very little and I’m mostly helpless.

And the complications inside me haunt me aswell, thinking about how I grew up to me so emotionally aware and sensitive towards life, challenges are usual and good, and I can personally take them, but I end up being more worried when the ones I care about can’t face them properly. And then there’s all other aspects of life.

However I’m still pushing through and still believing my efforts won’t go into waste and that maybe someday the table will turn around with me getting to know things better and becoming smarter and happier overtime. Thank you so much for reaching out aswell.